If I Could

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

A heated toilet seat

A walk in bath

A massage every night

For her tired aching feet

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

A kiss every hour just because

A hug each time I entered and left

Her room

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

Warm blankets all day long

Warm slippers for the nights

Warm pajamas to soothe her well used body

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

Long Loving looks into her eyes

And say

Thank you…

Thank you every time

My skin brushed her's

I would say thank you

Every time I drew a breath

I would say thank you

Every time a tear fell

Or a gush of laughter burst forth

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

More appreciation for

Every feather

Every ribbon

Every button

Every rubber band

Every paper clip

Every piece of saved paper “just in case”

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

Praise just for being my mom

Instead of being upset because she was not like me

And every moment of everyday

I would thank her for the all of me that is

Just like her

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would give to her, my mom

More Prayers upon my knees every night and

At each dawn

Thanking God for her, my mom

If I could turn back the hands of time

I would bring her back - my mom

Photo of Eleanor Ormsby Hughes Finley, my mom

Poem by Maryanne Mesplé April 17, 2016

We Are Intertwined

We sling lies

We spew venom

We crawl with the snakes

We scurry with the creatures

Of the emotional night

And Yet

For all the imagined poison

For all the imagined electrocutions

For all the imagined executions

Of my heart

Of their hearts

Of your heart

I remain in love

With your soul

Knowing you

I know me

Knowing we came from the same

Universal womb

Knowing we are one

Knowing we all have pain

Knowing we all have fears

Knowing – accepting

You will always remain

My brother

My sister

My kin

We are intertwined

Beyond thought

Your sufferings

Become my sufferings

And my reach for Love

Becomes your reach for love

We are one

Here

Now

Forever

~ Maryanne Mesplé April 17, 2016  - a snowy Sunday

My Burdened Heart

Beneath cold skies of night

My heart beats

Grasping to survive

Trying to not drown

In tears

Quietly I slip into velvet

Blackness

Cold air

Caresses my thoughts

I’m suffocating

Loss of hope

Forgotten dreams

Faith disappears

In the morrow

I’m crushed

Again

My burdened heart

Barely beats

My burdened heart

Beats toward

Nothingness

Nothing becomes safer

Than something

Absent moments

Collide with fears

I’ve no strength

Cold skies of night

Dressed in velvet darkness

Have stolen

My hope

My grace

My faith

(All stories/poems blogged/written/published  by Maryanne Mesplé/Mesple are my property and protected under copyright laws. No part may be used or reproduced in anyway without my permission ~ Maryanne Mesplé) 

The Quivering of Nothing

The space around me trembles

My mind is not still

Quivering objects taunt me

Threaten my reality

Keeping eyes closed

Keeps life still

Gazing down toward

The ground

Assures my logic

I am okay

Looking up

The quivering of nothing

Rattles my head

Keep still I scream!

Stop it!

Chairs don’t dance!

Lamps don’t jump!

My cup does not glide and slide

And shiver when filled!

The space around me quivers

My mind grabs and clings

To what is supposed to be

Not this shivering mess

That surrounds me

(All stories/poems blogged/written/published  by Maryanne Mesplé/Mesple are my property and protected under copyright laws. No part may be used or reproduced in anyway without my permission ~ Maryanne Mesplé) 

Disheartened

I’ve Had It

I'm delusional if I'm a believer in a God.

I'm a complacent stupid fool with my head up my backside if I pray.

I'm hated if I'm a Christian.

I'm hated if I'm Muslim.

I'm hated of I'm Jewish.

I'm hated if I'm Pagan

I'm hated if I'm Buddhist 

I'm hated if I'm Hindu 

I'm hated if I'm Atheist

I'm hated if I'm Agnostic

I'm a stupid sheep that misinterprets the 2nd amendment

If I don't agree with just anyone and everyone owning all the guns they could possible want

And

I'm an angry radical future terrorist that misinterprets the 2nd amendment

If I am a gun owner that owns as many guns that I want.

I am a blind idiot for being an American

Or Australian

Or Iranian

Or Middle Eastern in any way

Or Indigenous 

Or Chinese

Or Korean

Or live anywhere you don't.

I am an uncaring murderer if 

I support Pro Choice

And I am a hypocrite if I’m

Pro Life

Vaccinate! Don't Vaccinate!

It's real! It's a conspiracy and did not happen!

Vote Democrat? I'm a stupid ignorant whiny 

Bleeding heart Liberal trying to destroy America!

Vote Republican? I'm a stupid ignorant

Ego centered money hungry corporate loving fool 

Trying to destroy America!

Recycle, conserve energy, and work toward helping our planet be healthy and 

I'm somehow wrong for caring about the future because I'm being a responsible 

Citizen of Earth.

Don't believe in recycling energy conservation and climate change because God will take care

of Everything and I'm being a responsible citizen of Earth. 

Share pictures of my family and food and I'm stupid and boring
and don't have a life.
Don't post pictures and something is wrong with me, "don't you have a life?'
Share pictures of abused animals to promote a cause and I'm insensitive. Share pictures of cuddly kittens and I'm immature.


I'm always ...

Too thin Too fat Too white Too black Too yellow Too red

Too hungry Too smart Too stupid Too ignorant Too educated

Too dependent Too rich Too poor Too clean Too dirty

Too religious

Too hedonistic 

Too Human!

I'm tired of it all.

I'm exhausted.

I'm disheartened.