We Are Intertwined

We sling lies

We spew venom

We crawl with the snakes

We scurry with the creatures

Of the emotional night

And Yet

For all the imagined poison

For all the imagined electrocutions

For all the imagined executions

Of my heart

Of their hearts

Of your heart

I remain in love

With your soul

Knowing you

I know me

Knowing we came from the same

Universal womb

Knowing we are one

Knowing we all have pain

Knowing we all have fears

Knowing – accepting

You will always remain

My brother

My sister

My kin

We are intertwined

Beyond thought

Your sufferings

Become my sufferings

And my reach for Love

Becomes your reach for love

We are one

Here

Now

Forever

~ Maryanne Mesplé April 17, 2016  - a snowy Sunday

My Burdened Heart

Beneath cold skies of night

My heart beats

Grasping to survive

Trying to not drown

In tears

Quietly I slip into velvet

Blackness

Cold air

Caresses my thoughts

I’m suffocating

Loss of hope

Forgotten dreams

Faith disappears

In the morrow

I’m crushed

Again

My burdened heart

Barely beats

My burdened heart

Beats toward

Nothingness

Nothing becomes safer

Than something

Absent moments

Collide with fears

I’ve no strength

Cold skies of night

Dressed in velvet darkness

Have stolen

My hope

My grace

My faith

(All stories/poems blogged/written/published  by Maryanne Mesplé/Mesple are my property and protected under copyright laws. No part may be used or reproduced in anyway without my permission ~ Maryanne Mesplé) 

The Quivering of Nothing

The space around me trembles

My mind is not still

Quivering objects taunt me

Threaten my reality

Keeping eyes closed

Keeps life still

Gazing down toward

The ground

Assures my logic

I am okay

Looking up

The quivering of nothing

Rattles my head

Keep still I scream!

Stop it!

Chairs don’t dance!

Lamps don’t jump!

My cup does not glide and slide

And shiver when filled!

The space around me quivers

My mind grabs and clings

To what is supposed to be

Not this shivering mess

That surrounds me

(All stories/poems blogged/written/published  by Maryanne Mesplé/Mesple are my property and protected under copyright laws. No part may be used or reproduced in anyway without my permission ~ Maryanne Mesplé) 

Disheartened

I’ve Had It

I'm delusional if I'm a believer in a God.

I'm a complacent stupid fool with my head up my backside if I pray.

I'm hated if I'm a Christian.

I'm hated if I'm Muslim.

I'm hated of I'm Jewish.

I'm hated if I'm Pagan

I'm hated if I'm Buddhist 

I'm hated if I'm Hindu 

I'm hated if I'm Atheist

I'm hated if I'm Agnostic

I'm a stupid sheep that misinterprets the 2nd amendment

If I don't agree with just anyone and everyone owning all the guns they could possible want

And

I'm an angry radical future terrorist that misinterprets the 2nd amendment

If I am a gun owner that owns as many guns that I want.

I am a blind idiot for being an American

Or Australian

Or Iranian

Or Middle Eastern in any way

Or Indigenous 

Or Chinese

Or Korean

Or live anywhere you don't.

I am an uncaring murderer if 

I support Pro Choice

And I am a hypocrite if I’m

Pro Life

Vaccinate! Don't Vaccinate!

It's real! It's a conspiracy and did not happen!

Vote Democrat? I'm a stupid ignorant whiny 

Bleeding heart Liberal trying to destroy America!

Vote Republican? I'm a stupid ignorant

Ego centered money hungry corporate loving fool 

Trying to destroy America!

Recycle, conserve energy, and work toward helping our planet be healthy and 

I'm somehow wrong for caring about the future because I'm being a responsible 

Citizen of Earth.

Don't believe in recycling energy conservation and climate change because God will take care

of Everything and I'm being a responsible citizen of Earth. 

Share pictures of my family and food and I'm stupid and boring
and don't have a life.
Don't post pictures and something is wrong with me, "don't you have a life?'
Share pictures of abused animals to promote a cause and I'm insensitive. Share pictures of cuddly kittens and I'm immature.


I'm always ...

Too thin Too fat Too white Too black Too yellow Too red

Too hungry Too smart Too stupid Too ignorant Too educated

Too dependent Too rich Too poor Too clean Too dirty

Too religious

Too hedonistic 

Too Human!

I'm tired of it all.

I'm exhausted.

I'm disheartened. 

Questions Answered

My Question

Am I a helpless codependant soul

Incapable of being apart from 

Those that dramatize my world? No ...

Am I defined by reckless

Emotions of Egos?

Egos that flail about with intentions of

Demanding penance from me?

Desiring a penance demonstrating self deprecation,

Self Annihilation of my Spirit, my light? No ...

What do I want? Where is God?

Who am I? What is my defining essence?

My Answer

I Am A Co-Arising Eternal expression of God.

I am success defined with and by love,

I am freedom within my expressions, 

I am my passions,

I am the peace and harmony of this moment 

Never to be lost.

I am clarity and focus - I am Attention fired by Intention.

I am in that Gap between the here and the now. 

I draw creativity into my being and then ...

Then I breathe life into my creative expressions to become me.

I am my written voice, my verbal voice, my

Silent unspoken words of pain and joy.

I am the flow of self expression desiring 

To touch hearts and souls in sharing life.

I am What I think and What I say. 

I am THAT part of Creation - The I Am part of what was before me

And what will be after me and what is inside of me.

I am found in the pause between my inhaling and exhaling,

I am that space between my heart and my soul and more.

In That space, That gap,  I find my beginning

 Concocting the recipe of my essence, creating who I AM

So that I may find who I AM and why I AM.

And I know with a quiet earthshaking certainty that ....

I exist because of God - I Will always BE because of GOD.

I am not my Ego, 

I am not what is demanded of me by other Egos,

Egos that unconsciously desire everyone

 to stay lost in pain and suffering ... 

No. I. Am. Not.

With my Questions came my Answers

With my Answers there is release of 

An eternity of tension within me.

My body melts away into my true ethos

Where I am at peace between the

Gaps of my life filled by GOD.

I can now see My true reflection of who I AM,

I see MY essence mirrored back at me.

 In THEIR eyes as they look at me,

And It is like kissing the lips of GOD with my soul

And I tangibly and visually feel the Love of 

Infinity.

Even if I am the only one that sees me, still I am comforted

By knowing YOU know who I am 

All questions answered and peace ensues