Dear Ego

(Photo of and by Maryanne Mesplé, Santa Cruz CA)

Dear Ego

I’m done hiding in shadows

Of creeping around in the night

I’m done with hurts and anguish

From dreaming I’m not right

I’m done with spooky monsters

Misshapen forms that creepily look like me

I’m done with mistrust and misery

Thinking I’m the defective one not you

It’s never you so it must be me

I’m done with trying to please the world

That means everyone

I’m done measuring my soul against yours

And believing you've won

I’m done with pretending

There’s a hologram boogieman

Hungry to make me cry

I’m done believing all that you say

Is truth 'cause you never lie

I’m done feeding you dreams

Believing you care

I’m done following you blindly

Afraid to be free

Now

I’m done being what you call  fearful and guilty

Because now I'm free to be the spirit that is 'me’

Poem by Maryanne Mesplé

June 2016

On Being a Hermit

~On Being a Hermit~

I know the heart of the Hermit

Is a heart war torn

Beaten and downtrodden

A resource tattered and scattered

Used up then left aside

Outside life progresses on

Crawling away, hiding within

Recluse like in darkened internal dens

Withdrawing from the poisons

Of a venomous world

In solitude healing begins

The battle scars reflect

Days once lived in belief and faith

Offering up compassion and love

To those whom choose to only fear

Alone time stands still

Turn off the chatter of a wounded heart

Live a life apart from all the winds

Forgiving forgetting the Terrors of life

Rebuild a spirit that is strengthened

From within

Love is the visceral elixir of faith

The Hermit becomes wise

Beyond thoughts, beyond body

Knowing that to be alone within and without

Heals the tortured soul so that

Wisdom can be born

Come out

(Painting and photo by Maryanne Mesplé 2016)

Poem by Maryanne Mesplé May 2016

Questions Answered

My Question

Am I a helpless codependant soul

Incapable of being apart from 

Those that dramatize my world? No ...

Am I defined by reckless

Emotions of Egos?

Egos that flail about with intentions of

Demanding penance from me?

Desiring a penance demonstrating self deprecation,

Self Annihilation of my Spirit, my light? No ...

What do I want? Where is God?

Who am I? What is my defining essence?

My Answer

I Am A Co-Arising Eternal expression of God.

I am success defined with and by love,

I am freedom within my expressions, 

I am my passions,

I am the peace and harmony of this moment 

Never to be lost.

I am clarity and focus - I am Attention fired by Intention.

I am in that Gap between the here and the now. 

I draw creativity into my being and then ...

Then I breathe life into my creative expressions to become me.

I am my written voice, my verbal voice, my

Silent unspoken words of pain and joy.

I am the flow of self expression desiring 

To touch hearts and souls in sharing life.

I am What I think and What I say. 

I am THAT part of Creation - The I Am part of what was before me

And what will be after me and what is inside of me.

I am found in the pause between my inhaling and exhaling,

I am that space between my heart and my soul and more.

In That space, That gap,  I find my beginning

 Concocting the recipe of my essence, creating who I AM

So that I may find who I AM and why I AM.

And I know with a quiet earthshaking certainty that ....

I exist because of God - I Will always BE because of GOD.

I am not my Ego, 

I am not what is demanded of me by other Egos,

Egos that unconsciously desire everyone

 to stay lost in pain and suffering ... 

No. I. Am. Not.

With my Questions came my Answers

With my Answers there is release of 

An eternity of tension within me.

My body melts away into my true ethos

Where I am at peace between the

Gaps of my life filled by GOD.

I can now see My true reflection of who I AM,

I see MY essence mirrored back at me.

 In THEIR eyes as they look at me,

And It is like kissing the lips of GOD with my soul

And I tangibly and visually feel the Love of 

Infinity.

Even if I am the only one that sees me, still I am comforted

By knowing YOU know who I am 

All questions answered and peace ensues